tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60376175222565694562024-02-20T12:44:49.395-08:00Here, there, and everywhere in betweenThis blog is about infertility and the other curve balls thrown my way.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.comBlogger89125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-60313964237365691412012-06-08T10:14:00.001-07:002012-06-08T10:14:04.816-07:00Chugging alongSo my numbers on last Thursdays beta were over 900. Things were all good until on Tuesday I just started randomly bleeding. I bled very heavily for 8 hours. Of course I freaked out and went and got blood drawn again to check the levels. My RE office called me and fit me in for an ultrasound. I'm happy to say I am still pregnant but this scared quite a few years off my life.<br />
<br />
I'm sure I know why it happened and that is because of stress. My mother (with whom I am not on speaking terms currently) found out about the pregnancy and proceeded to hound me on facebook, phone, and I'm sure email as well (luckily I have those blocked). Luckily my tech capable husband has taken care of that and will be contacting her to let her know I will not be including her. Harsh I know but there is about 30 years worth of explanation. The other stressful thing was I had to tell my boss's boss about my pregnancy because I have appointments and it is our busy season so I have to have a good reason beyond a Doctors appointment. So I told her that I was still very early and considered high risk and that shut her up. Luckily she had a baby earlier in the year and came back in March from maternity leave.<br />
<br />
June 15th (my husband's birthday) is when we go in for the offical ultrasound where we will hopefully see the heartbeat. As of now the only thing I cannot stand to smell or taste is Shrimp. My sense of smell is very much heightened as this means the husband showers more LOL. But seafood is the only thing that sets me off.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-18745832831889393202012-05-29T15:50:00.002-07:002012-05-29T15:50:47.177-07:00FET #1 resultsGot the call from my RE. My Beta HCG is postive and is at 352. I'm so many things right now but I'm keeping a lid on it until my 2nd HCG on Thursday. <br />
<br />Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-27886082187732388192012-05-21T12:29:00.001-07:002012-05-21T12:29:49.185-07:00FET and waiting to hearSince my IVF cycle did not end up with a transfer our Dr recommended that I wait for 2 months before doing our first FET. The embryo transfer was on the 17th (one month exactly to my 30th birthday) and I take my blood test on Tuesday the 29th. The Doctor, procedure nurse, and embryologist are all optimistic as my 5AA blastocyte came back 100% after the freeze. It was so cool to watch them put that inside of me and I felt teary.<br />
<br />
So I've been feeling slightly tired and today the taste of eggs made me feel like I was going to puke. I'm very aware of my chest and so have decided to take all these things as good signs even if it might be psychosomatic. 8 days until I know for sure.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-44573696006986255452012-03-09T10:07:00.000-08:002012-03-09T10:07:52.252-08:00Cycle Day 1So our first round of IVF was really stressful and very very fast. We got 42 eggs at retrieval and 24 of those went for frozen embryos. The reason being I was severely Hyper stimmed. So severe I ended up in the hospital for a day and had to have my fluid drained. In the course of 1 week I gained 15lbs. I was in misery. I wanted to be put out of my misery. So we had to freeze all and will have to do a FET cycle.<br />
<br />
So rather than focus on how crappy that all turned out I am focusing on how happy I am that I can take a deep breath, am able to fit into my clothes, and don't ever have to do IVF again.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-67149385543907489482012-02-16T08:20:00.000-08:002012-02-16T08:20:35.591-08:00First day of StimsThis morning I took my first stim shot (150 Bravelle mixed with 75 Menopur) and I mixed my stim shot for the evening (75 Bravelle mixed with 75 menopur). I even got the Lupron shot ready since I was mixing drugs and put the shots in my handy re purposed pencil case.<br />
<br />
This part is the second hardest part of the fertility treatments (the hardest part being the two week wait). I dislike all the hormonal changes and not being able to anticipate them. But It is worth it to me to take them for the end product.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-79050811480315900072012-02-03T11:50:00.000-08:002012-02-03T11:50:09.070-08:00First shot IVF cycle #1 last nightLast night I gave myself the first shot in the protocol. Yay for Lupron. I shot up and went directly to bed since I hate side effects.<br />
<br />
I feel very conflicted about all of this. You see we spent my paychecks to pay for the IVF cycle and the loudest voice in my head is yelling "if this doesn't work you just wasted a lovely trip to italy". Sometimes I really wish I could shut up the mental voices but I'm not able to. I'm stressing out which is making my neck wrench and be incredibly stiff.<br />
<br />
I guess the main thing is that I don't want to be a failure at this anymore. I'm going to do everything I can do to make this work but ultimately its not in my hands. The worst thing for a control freak like me. So I need to focus on what I do have control on: My eating habits, my exercise habits, and meditation habits. I'm starting to train for my second attempt at running a 5k in September for the Giants Race.<br />
<br />
I pray for the serenity to gracefully get through the next month and a half.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-37832390720195124972012-01-20T10:40:00.000-08:002012-01-20T10:40:33.435-08:00Countdown to injectionsToday (after enduring a full day of the comedy of errors with our clinic and the prescription not going where we were told) we were able to order the entirety of our drugs for the IVF round coming up. I think what surprised me the most in all of this was that there was a $3600 dollar difference in going and picking up the drugs and getting them shipped to us. I mean that $3600 is really my budget for baby when we finally get there. I'm happy that I don't have to go to a pharmacy to pick them up and deal with all of that.And I even know that its about 2 weeks before I even need it but still it will be nice to have the piece of mind that we have the meds and just need to go from there.<br />
<br />
Jumping topics to talk about Work. There are times when I love what I do and times I don't. This week has really been a struggle between love and hate. You see my school is sending me off with our admissions department to give a financial aid presentation (which looks awesome!) in Washington and Oregon. The trip is over a weekend so it will be a long week. And its the weekend before the tuition deadline. So I anticipate that while I will be talking it up to students I will also be working long nights to keep caught up with email and reports.<br />
<br />
I know that the next 2 months are going to test me in so many ways and I look forward to it. I look forward to knowing about where we are headed even if it isn't the path I want. I know I can deal with all the fallout if the bottom drops out. I look forward to sharing what happens with you while going through this.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-1131378436663036652011-12-19T13:48:00.000-08:002011-12-19T13:48:17.611-08:00IVF consultWe had our consult with the head of the IVF clinic and put down our deposit for Feb/March. Everything went pretty much as I had anticipated except the Doctor said that we are on the edge of unexplained fertility since our 6 IUI's did not work. He made some suggestions on what we could do leading up to it but I'm still really scared that we try this and it still doesn't work. Then we will have spent that money for no reason. That's my biggest fear.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-19295842169144146772011-12-15T14:49:00.000-08:002011-12-15T14:49:29.563-08:00Do not speak what you will not do, for one day you will eat your wordsAt the beginning of my journey of infertility before I could understand what the different methods were I was strong that I would not ever do IVF because that was just too unnatural (please forgive my ignorant 22 year old self, she was well...a bitch).<br />
<br />
<br />
So those words are now something I have to eat. Our last inject-able treatment was a dismal failure. Such a failure that my period showed up 2 days (!!) before the blood pregnancy test. I allowed myself to have a pity party for one day and only one day. The next morning I got up drove to my conference (that was 3 hours away) and got the blood drawn for my pregnancy test. I told myself that even though things have not gone as planed that we were blessed to still have options available. <br />
<br />
So yesterday I got back in touch with our clinic and got the phone number for an IVF case manager. I called her and she explained what all was going to happen and the sequence of events (which was wonderful because I had no clue what all had to happen first). I even got to schedule my appointment for our official consult and a list of labs that need to happen.<br />
<br />
Tomorrow I get to speak with the head of the clinic about what our protocol will be. I'm a jumble of emotions and feel more than a little lost when it comes down to all of this. I know from reading other people's blogs that IVF doesn't guarantee success. In fact IVF can be where you find out horrible news. I'm just praying that its not horrible news for me. I have so many worries and so much anxiety built around IVF as a process. It's a process I long to know all the ins and outs of but at the same time would rather not since that means I've done it multiple times. Really this is just a struggle. I know I have a battle ahead of me and I've prepared as much as I can. I just hope it's enough.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-641291988335874772011-11-14T12:17:00.000-08:002011-11-14T12:17:27.588-08:00First follow up ultra soundSo I've done 5 days of injections thus far (no bruises or major blood spurting). I went in this morning for the first follow up ultra sound. I have many follicles four 7mm, two 8mm, and one 9.1! I'm more than a little surprised to have one that big thus far but am excited. I have to go back on Thursday to get another follow up but hopefully there will be 2-3 big ones. I'm hoping to be triggered this weekend and inseminated prior to Thanksgiving. I'm listening to my circle bloom PCOS cycle mp3s every night and I think it's helping me to stay calm and accept things as they are going. I'm also avoiding unnecessary stress and problems. The only bad thing was the scale. I've put on 2 lbs but I think it may be that my clothes were heavier. Last week I was in leggings, a tunic, and suede ankle boots. Today a cotton oversize shirt, vest, heavy dress pants, and sneakers. So for me I see 2 pounds in all of that. But I am thankful for things as they are. :)Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-68894687798748897202011-11-09T14:44:00.000-08:002011-11-09T14:44:24.420-08:00Once more!Today was CD3, that means yet another appointment with Wandy! Woo. This meant that I got to sleep in an extra 2 (!) hours, which was marvelous. Once I was up my husband wondered to the kitchen and made me breakfast. It was super delicious.<br />
<br />
My clinic is so very nice. Even though it had been almost a year since we had come in, people still remembered us and were all "where have you been?!" and it was nice to reconnect and still feel positive. As is par for the course we didn't see the RN until about 10 minutes after our appointment time (even though we arrived 10 minutes early). Then it was on to the wand, lining looked good but still have a bazillion small follicles. So then it was on to talking about this cycles cocktail. 2 vials Bravelle and 1 vial Menopur every night. I go back on Monday to see what (if anything) has grown. I know I say this every cycle but this cycle feels different. I feel positive and upbeat. I'm not going to let it take over me and am still going to do the things I like to do (minus drinking and such).<br />
<br />
All in all I'm quite happy about things, which is a nice change of scenery.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-34731416403514262442011-10-11T14:43:00.000-07:002011-10-11T14:43:27.765-07:00My mind wanders....Welcome to October! No it doesn't matter that it's 11 days in and I'm just now remembering it's October. Nor does it matter that my anniversary is this weekend. That is not filling up my brain these days. What has been filling up my mind is: babies.<br />
I can explain I swear. You will think I'm crazy but I went to a hypnotist who specializes in fertility, I've done 2 sessions with her and interesting things are happening. So I typically don't have a lot going on downstairs but for the last two weeks there has been quite a bit of action going on. Weird sensations, cramping, spotting 2 Sundays in a row. Add that to my 2 weeks of feeling incredibly tired and nauseated and we have an issue. You see I jump right in to figuring out dates, like due dates. Yes if I were to get pregnant right now I could potentially have my baby on or around my 30th birthday. Which would be awesome! Which then gets me looking down the line and you know where this is going right? On a related note one of the managers in my office had her baby this past weekend at 34 weeks, everyone is good so that's good. Just makes me want a baby. I'm going to test this weekend and then I have an appointment in 2 weeks. If I don't have my period in that time frame I think I want to start doing another session of injectables.<br />
<br />
The reason for going back on injectables is that I have time right now. I can float around my work days to cover appointments and make it work. The only thing is that I don't think the Husband is behind it currently. He's not happy with his weight and such. I guess I know what I will be bringing up at our anniversary dinner.<br />
<br />
In other news I am becoming obsessed with Pinrest! I have about 8 boards right now. The only thing I really want to know is how I can print the board because I have this motivation one and its awesome and I want to look at it A LOT. Beyond that I'm good to go! :)Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-60781500903769563612011-09-30T15:17:00.000-07:002011-09-30T15:17:30.871-07:00Five things on FridayEvery Friday I want to do a "5 things". I will choose a topic and write 5 positive things.<br />
<br />
This week I choose....Work<br />
<br />
1) I do enjoy the aspect of guiding people through the Financial aid process and letting them know what they need to know.<br />
2) I enjoy talking with people and taking their interesting situations and making it work within the construct of federal policy.<br />
3) I enjoy working in SF in the middle of the Financial District as there is always somewhere to visit.<br />
4) I like knowing that I am the most organized person here, even though it doesn't translate to home.<br />
5)I like the people I work with.<br />
<br />
And here's the flip, 5 complaints about work:<br />
1) People thinking that if they make me happy/sad it will affect how much aid I give them. It doesn't, these rules are set by the government and I can't change that<br />
2) People thinking that I can just write them a check whenever their funds come in. It doesn't ever work that way, there is a process that has to be gone through. I know it takes time but seriously I have zero control on it.<br />
3) People who think I'm out to screw them. There is no way I can screw you, the government protects you from that. Believe me I generally want you to leave me alone, its not worth the jail time and loss of career to even try to do anything.<br />
4)Coworkers who don't pull their load. I work hard to make sure we can get as much money in so refunds can go out on time. I don't need to do your work too. I have plenty.<br />
5) The unwillingness of the higher ups to rework things and change things that are only just barely working. Stop pretending this is a small school, its not. Let's try to be efficient people.<br />
<br />
Ah I feel better now.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-85092903959188106742011-09-27T09:26:00.000-07:002011-09-27T09:26:41.523-07:00I swear I'm not crazy...Yesterday was not one of my better days. I did manage to only get yelled at once (and not even my student!) so that was a win. But getting home seriously broke me. You see I commute from Hayward to San Francisco daily by Bus. I usually don't have any problems and it will usually take 45 minutes to an hour, either direction. Yesterday coming home was torture. Let me explain. I get off work at 4:30p, walk the 1/2 mile to the transbay bus station to catch the 5pm bus. Yesterday the 5pm bus didn't arrive until 5:10. Then we hit every conceivable bit of traffic on the way down the 880. I did not get home until 7pm. So I wasn't in the greatest of moods when I got there.<br />
<br />
Then I had to empty the dishwasher, as I had been putting it off since Friday and I didn't want to hand wash the dishes that had stacked up since then. I go to empty it and notice everything is still dirty. So either my darling husband opened it or my cat did. That sent me to cursing a blue streak because now I had to wash the dishes and run the dishwasher at the same time. My poor husband hid in his office until I was done. I was still fuming but hadn't eaten anything so I had some left over Corned Beef and risotto. Once I ate I was out of my grumpy mood and back to feeling good. I swear it was like a Jekyll Hyde moment.<br />
<br />
So I'm hoping today will be a do over day. I will go home and empty the dishwasher and reload with the hand washed dishes (because I am paranoid like that). Then I will fold the 3 weeks worth of laundry I've let accumulate and put it away. I will text my husband to make dinner so it is waiting on me when I get home so I will be in a better mood tonight.<br />
<br />
I still have this weird nausea that is coming and going. Along with being crazy tired. Thank god my boobs aren't sore or else I'd have to get a pregnancy test to calm my brain down from that. I don't think I could stand the anxiety of that right now.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-45086750619241983582011-09-26T11:12:00.000-07:002011-09-26T11:12:57.631-07:00Monday MondayToday is my least favorite day in any semester. It's refund day. This is where I get students ranging from Crying to screaming about getting/not getting/not getting what they thought in refund amount. No matter how hard I try to explain that it's simple math (tuition-aid= refund or out of pocket cost) these people can't seem to grasp it.<br />
<br />
What I want to remind them is this:<br />
1) This money comes from you going in to debt with the Federal government<br />
2) Since you knew that refunds come this late why didn't you save money to pay for your supplies?!<br />
3) I don't get to make the rules so I can't wave a magic wand and give you money. It's just not possible. There are rules that I have to follow or else I will lose my job and/or go to prison.<br />
<br />
Luckily I am in the back corner of the room and don't have many visitors. I am trying very hard to keep zen and not just start throwing things. What doesn't help in all of this is that today I feel icky. My tummy is bouncing between vague nausea and need for a toilet. My neck is also slightly tweaked so looking down isn't happening (not that I want to look at my feet but I would like the option to do so without pain).<br />
<br />
All in all just a crappy Monday.<br />
<br />
So now I need a positive moment:<br />
I do very much enjoy my venti nonfat iced chai and protein box. It's enough to keep me going for most of the day. (300 calories for the Chai and 380 for the protein box= 680..not too shabby) I could have 2 of those and be set for the day! Woo! The chai is the best, it's so spicy (as in full of spice not OMG my mouth is burning). It's interesting to me that I can eat that and basically not be hungry until the afternoon. Yay me!Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-12379982401149177412011-09-23T14:54:00.000-07:002011-09-23T14:54:30.936-07:00Can I start again?I've been quiet. Many reasons for that. Mostly because my marriage looked like it was going to explode in to little bits and I wasn't ready to share that after all the emotional upheaval of the cycles.<br />
<br />
Then blogger got blocked at work, where I spend most of my day online. When I get home I rarely turn a computer on. I just don't see the point as I have to be on one all day. But it's back now so I'm on it like white on rice.<br />
<br />
So I'm going to start again with you. This blog will be conversations with myself about things I need to talk about. Be that marriage, infertility, work crazy, etc. I'm just going to speak as though I'm telling you the story. This will not be what I think I should say but rather what I want to say. I will not sensor myself<br />
<br />
So lets start here and now. <br />
<br />
September 2011 already?! Where did the year go? I really do think of this as my lost year. I lost sight of myself and the important things I want. My marriage went through a really rough patch. Like packing-up-my-stuff-trying-to-find-an-apartment rough patch. When things started to get better there I went back to therapy just to finally figure out what I actually wanted out of all of this. That doesn't sound difficult at all right? Wrong. After much discussion I figured out the only reason I put the "i-don't-want-a-family" face on was because I was just too hurt and tired of failing.<br />
<br />
We've not tried at all since December 2010's cycle didn't work out. We've been saving for IVF and will probably take that leap in the new year, if the 2 cycles of injections don't work. I had a conversation with a friend and she suggested that maybe I should see a hypnotist. I followed the advice and went for my first appointment earlier in the week. Am I 100% that this will work? No. But I have faith and it's time I exercised it.<br />
<br />
Weight wise I'm above 200 again. Not sure exactly what at right now but I know it's over the limit. The truth with my weight is that I don't care right now. Or maybe I don't care enough to deny myself when I have a craving or desire for something. Am I loving the body? Not completely, I do love the fact I have some boobs, not lovin the jiggly belly though. That was probably TMI but seriously I've been an A cup for most of my life, I'm dancing in glee for the fact I got some C boobies, never mind the fact the tummy is larger than the boobs.<br />
<br />
On the work front I'm not completely happy. I got a great raise in my review this year (woo 7%) but didn't get the title change I was angling for, so that's frustrating. My husband pointed out that maybe I just need to be sitting at this desk longer for that to happen. I suppose he's right but it doesn't make my ambition crazed side very happy. Oh well. <br />
<br />
I suppose that's enough for now. Thanks for listening.Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-1065478882551990822010-12-03T14:00:00.001-08:002010-12-03T14:00:33.215-08:00cd 12I have been bleeding bright red since 9am. Not sure what is going on. I am very scared/confused. Thank god my clinic is able to take me tomorrow...wtf is goin on in this body, its too soon to have a period and i supposedly have a 13mm follie/cyst. I dont know what to think anymore.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div>Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-32354860365422991332010-11-24T10:38:00.001-08:002010-11-24T10:38:48.216-08:00BrokenNot only did my last cycle not get the elusive BFP but come to find out this morning that I am riddled with cysts. So many in fact my dr thinks they may not go down until the new year. <br/> <br/> I had mentally prepared myself to get into another round of I saw them in January that I was pregnant. Now this is not going to happen (unless by some miracle). I am disappointed because i wont have the chance to tell them face to face again (since i avoid flying there with everything i have because its expensive). Maybe it will be better this way. Its just so hard to think positively when i know that tonight i will be facing hy husbands mom and grandma and tell them that once again i am not pregnant.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div>Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-42890993353750029402010-11-22T10:53:00.001-08:002010-11-22T10:53:24.499-08:00aunt floHere she is again. Appontment made to start cycle 3 of injections and with it hopefully a bfp at the end.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div>Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-44303918452514165512010-11-01T18:00:00.001-07:002010-11-01T18:00:16.812-07:00another day another vial of bloodI am scheduled to see my favorite nurse practioner at the clinic tomorrow and i emailed her to see if i needed to get some bloodwork done. Of course the answer was yes. So off to the vampires i go. Tomorrow i go and see if the extra 4 days of high dose worked and got me something to trigger. I really hope so, i hope so much that i am going to tak my trigger shot with me. <br/> <br/> If we trigger tomorrow that means insemination on wed/thurs. I really want this to work so that way i can tell my parents in person after the new year. I really need this to be my bright spot.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-74726141840784460172010-10-29T11:48:00.000-07:002010-10-29T11:48:40.440-07:00Current song on my mindJust Haven't Met You Yet -- Michael Buble`<br />
<br />
<br />
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts<br />
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track<br />
Talk myself in, I talk myself out<br />
I get all worked up, then I let myself down<br />
<br />
I tried so very hard not to lose it<br />
I came up with a million excuses<br />
I thought, I thought of every possibility<br />
<br />
And I know someday that it'll all turn out<br />
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out<br />
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get<br />
I just haven't met you yet<br />
<br />
I might have to wait, I'll never give up<br />
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck<br />
Wherever you are, whenever it's right<br />
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life<br />
<br />
And I know that we can be so amazing<br />
And, baby, your love is gonna change me<br />
And now I can see every possibility<br />
<br />
And somehow I know that it'll all turn out<br />
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out<br />
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get<br />
I just haven't met you yet<br />
<br />
They say all's fair<br />
In love and war<br />
But I won't need to fight it<br />
We'll get it right and we'll be united<br />
<br />
And I know that we can be so amazing<br />
And being in your life is gonna change me<br />
And now I can see every single possibility<br />
And someday I know it'll all turn out<br />
And I'll work to work it out<br />
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get<br />
Than I get, than I get, than I get<br />
<br />
Oh, you know it'll all turn out<br />
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out<br />
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get<br />
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet<br />
I just haven't met you yet<br />
Oh, promise you, kid<br />
To give so much more than I get<br />
<br />
I said love, love, love, love<br />
Love, love, love, love<br />
(I just haven't met you yet)<br />
Love, love, love, love<br />
Love, love<br />
I just haven't met you yetKarenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-52098576287139990762010-10-29T11:02:00.001-07:002010-10-29T11:02:32.666-07:00Checking inTuesday check had really good lining (almost 8!) and about 4 follies that are close to 8 as well. So they upped me from 2 vials to 3 and I go back in today for another check. <br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
There has definitely been some "activity" so I wouldn't be suprised if I have maybe one more day to another week of shots then insemination. My appointment is at 3:40pm pst so we will see! *crosses fingers*<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
If things are good and I do get to move to the next stage I worry about what I will do to keep my 2ww to non crazy levels. Any suggestions?Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-56377974334056165482010-10-22T15:46:00.001-07:002010-10-22T15:46:12.295-07:00mobile bloggingWow can i actually blog and not be tied to a computer?! Awesome.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.3</div>Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-29076747908550482052010-10-21T11:15:00.000-07:002010-10-21T11:15:02.195-07:00Here we go again!I started my period Sunday night (as predicited) and called in on Monday to set up the next appointment, it was yesterday. We got Bravelle for the second round and rather than doing low and slow (1 vial per day), we have ramped it up (2 vials a day). She will see me back next Tuesday where we will hopefully have some great growth. <br />
<br />
I have so much hope for this cycle. I even asked my magic 8 ball and without any prompting it told me Yes to my question of will this cycle work and end with a live baby. I know that was rather specific but that's how I roll.<br />
<br />
Right now I'm getting myself ready for our first housewarming party. I just made the grocery list and am currently making the "what I need to do each day" list. I have a feeling sleeping in on Saturday is so not going to happen!Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6037617522256569456.post-27000538574141233352010-10-07T10:25:00.001-07:002010-10-07T10:25:39.060-07:00DistractedI woke up this morning before my alarm clock (which is rare). I got to enjoy it going off and immediately exiting the bed. I know the progesterone is working because my body temp is HIGH. The last two days I have been so sweaty, one would think I had just come from the gym! If I time this right my period will start right after my 5 year wedding anniversary, which means treatments will start later this month, I could be pregnant before 2011 starts. That is a whole lot of hope right there.<br /><br />The fun of this week was on Tuesday morning my hubby called and told me that he had a COLD shower and not on purpose. The diagnosis, the water heater was leaking. You would think it would be easy enough to fix. Not so much. We called the Home Warranty people and they sent out a plumber who promptly looked at our water heater and said “We don’t service this model, you’ll need to call someone else”. So we called the warranty people back and they said they would send another plumber. 2 and a half hours go by (at this point its after 5pm) we call the other plumber who tells us that they aren’t coming and told the warranty people. We call the warranty people and sure enough the plumber never called them. At this point because of the leak we have to turn water off to the whole house. That lasted 24 hours before we got another plumber there who will have to check with the manufacturer about our water heater BUT knew a way for us to have water without worrying about the house sinking (the water heater was leaking under the house). So we have running cold water, an improvement but still not so fantastic.<br /><br />The really nice part is the hubbs got the TV working again! Yay!! Apparently it had broken in multiple parts and only an engineer could fix it. You would think I would have rushed home to watch my dvr, well no I didn’t. I know that when I sit down to watch TV I will have to have a block of time to get through my 29 programs on my dvr, and it will have to be multiple nights. So I feel overwhelmed by what I’ve missed. <br /><br />On to other things! Two girls at work in another department announced their pregnancy yesterday and I went immediately to “congrats!” rather than the slight hesitation in “I hate you” land. So I’m proud of myself for not taking their pregnancy announcement as a reminder that I’m not.<br /><br />Today was a great big reminder that it is indeed Fall! I live in the Bay Area which is pretty darn temperate (compared to just about everywhere else) but the Fall crispness was in the air and it reminded me to find my ear muffs because my ears are COLD! I’m not really looking forward to the rains starting but it will make things easier in the long run.<br />Karenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07202688299261872083noreply@blogger.com0