Blog Hop!!

So I read quite a few IF blogs since it passes the time at work when there isn't anything to do and its great to find out I'm not the only one with issues.

So a lovely lady at Busted Plumbinghttp://www.bustedplumbing.com/2010/04/infertility-blog-hop-participation.html is encouraging people to share and read the other blogs out there to give support on this holiday weekend.

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Easter is one of those times I feel very sad and yet not. Every year at Easter time I would watch Easter Parade (ya know Judy Garland? Fred Astaire?) to be with my grandmother vicariously (she lived 3000 miles away and this was her favorite movie). After she died Easter was just completely crappy for me. It was too near her birthday and all I would be able to think about was her. When I got married Easter was such a big family holiday that I came up with reasons not to go. It was worse as all the cousins his age started spawning. I just didn't want to be around babys when I knew I couldn't have one. I couldn't just seperate it into being happy for someone else.

Then my SIL had her first child. It has taken me almost 3 years to get to the point where I was not completely hurt everytime I saw that child. I love my nephew and look forward to playing with him more over the weekend.

I'm finally able to put the proper space between people having kids and me not having kids. Although it would be better this weekend if my folicles showed some growth (but I'm not holding out alot of hope there).